Work Sucks, I Know

24th of May 2023

I'm getting bad at posts here. Work has been non-stop. It didn't help when my boss was out for surgery. That started a big mess. Could I have done my part to keep things as clean as possible? Yes, I'm willing to admit that. However, when people start telling lies about me for their personal gain, I don't feel I'm being fairly treated. This showed up in my performance review.

I don't know why I bothered with the performance review. I knew ahead of time that I wasn't getting a raise. However, some falsehoods were included in my performance review that I was never talked about within a week after the incidents happened. I was told about them at my performance review.

I'm missing some other piece of information here. I didn't know about my performance review until I was called into my boss's office and she told me we were doing my performance review. I was caught way off guard. She rarely pulls stunts like that. She asked why learning the new equipment that we launched wasn't listed as an accomplishment of mine. My answer was simple: that was the company's accomplishment, not mine. I had no desire to learn this new equipment, and the only reason I did learn it is because I still needed a job.

Then she went onto ask about my relationship with other coworkers. I should mention that I've come to her with problems I had with coworkers. Those problems were used against me in the review. In fact, incidents that happened in March that I never knew about were put into my review without talking to me. I know, I know, my boss was out for surgery. However, she came back on April 12th. My review happened on the 11th of May. There was PLENTY of time to talk to me about those 2 incidents. That way, I could have told my side. Instead, the boss of the other coworkers (who is my boss's boss, confused yet?) jumped to conclusions. Their boss said I made them cry. I asked them both about it, and one said she never cried or even mentioned me as a problem. The other admitted she cried, but it was out of frustrations that had nothing to do with me. So someone is lying. It could be the coworkers; it could be their boss; it could be my boss. I don't know.

What I totally in the right in all of this? Far from it. I let my temper and depression get the best of me. I'm not saying nor will I ever say I'm in the right. However, I feel I was robbed from finding out the truth. I don't know the truth, and neither do my coworkers. To find the truth, we needed to sit down and talk about what our experiences were during the rocky times we may have in the work place. The way this was handled was more unprofessional than anything me or my coworkers may have done.

One thing they don't know is that I joined the union in April. Something told me I needed to join. I joined a little late, but I did it just in time. I will not let them walk over me. They can drag me through the mud, but they better be willing to get dirty themselves. I'm used to dirt. They're not. I will stand up for myself, and I will not be brought down by a basis of lies.