Make the Opportunity and Seize It!

2nd of January 2023

I didn't particularly enjoy 2022 for many reasons. I applied for 2 different jobs outside of the state to finally get out of this shithole state called Iowa. I'll write another article about why I hate Iowa later. I plan to do it when I leave. I didn't get either job. The only plus I can say is I got to see Sacramento, California, and that's where I want to go. I'm just waiting for a spot to open up. The other was Orlando, Florida, and even though they said they were going to fly me out for an in-person interview, they decided not to for whatever reason.

I'm not so upset about Florida except telling me one thing and doing another. I didn't want to live in Florida, but I was that desperate to get out of Iowa. I will have to tough it out for another couple or few years.

This year at the station has incorporated many changes that affect how I do my job. Of course, it involves me doing more work with the same amount of pay. To make it worse, the whip cracking has also gotten worse. I now do the jobs of 3 positions at once. While there are some benefits to it, there's just as many if not more cons. I get yelled at more, and I was expected to just know all this shit going into it. Every time I asked a question, how fucking dare I! And now we're supposed to sit in the newsroom so we can talk to with our producers and have a better relationship with them. Ok, fine. I did that once, and they're talking about these guys with dad bods in a calendar we did a story on and just totally shaming them for their bodies. If you have seen me, you know I'm overweight. A lot of the features my coworkers were making fun of the guys in the calendar for are the same features I have. I just left. I stopped going over to the newsroom for a bit as well. I told my boss, but I doubt anything will be done about it. Another instance was another coworker with the same title as me was over there while they were laughing at a mistake he made. He took exception, and now, he won't go over. It's a pissing match that's going to involve piss all over everywhere, even the ceiling. I don't see it getting fixed. I lack faith in the management since they let one particular manager get away with a high turnover rate.

My 2022 has been mostly work. I'm pissed about that. I worked lots to get some bills paid. While some are paid, some keep coming up. I still haven't seen anything for the open-heart surgery. I might have mentioned that I have a second job at a local brewery to help save money and be able to move to California. I like the people I work with except one person. His jokes suck, he sucks, and he's a know-it-all. One weekend, I sold lots of pretzels because, well, it's my fucking job. I keep hearing all sorts of shit about it for weeks. One week, he made jokes about me because I volunteered for Special Olympics. What a dick thing to do. I think so anyways. The man is just a big time douchebag.

So this 2022 year has me thinking that I need to make my own opportunities and seize them. I need to find my own way to get to California. I'm thinking of moving to an apartment in order to do that. I don't want the house to be a burden when I move. I don't know how much money I'll be able to make off of it, but I hope some. I'm not sure even where to start. I've tried asking many people what to do, and all of it is scary. I don't want to make a mistake, but I know I will. Nothing is ever perfect. I would like to have a job before I move there. It seems logical. I don't know how else to keep money coming in. All I know is I need to get a plan in motion. It's ok to make mistakes, but not doing anything might be the biggest mistake I could make. I'm not about to do that.