Gym Life Isn't & Shouldn't Be Easy

27th of July 2017

Lately, after my workouts at the gym, my clothes are soaked in sweat. I can only hope that this is a sign of progress. I've been with a couple of trainers this year, and I learned that my dedication comes from within. I've also learned that I don't like to let others down. In my journey to lose weight, I have let myself down quite a bit. The biggest lesson I need to learn is to not dwell on it. If I gain a little back, sitting on it won't get rid of it. Losing weight is hard, and it's something I've wanted to do for a while. I'm under 300, and I was after only about a month at the gym. I refuse to get that bad again. Right now, I'm shooting to get down to 260, but I won't stop there. At this point, I'm taking baby steps. I'm still doing the runs, and this year so far, I've done 8 and am signed up to do 3 more. That number might change as well. However, I don't know if next year's number will go up or down. I've determined that if the race has a fee for race day pick-up, I'm not going to participate. It's not worth it, and it's worse when they have the packet pick-up clear on the other side of town of where the race is taking place. I had to go to Altoona once for a pick-up (for those that don't know, Altoona is just east of Des Moines). I shouldn't have to drive more than a half hour to get my pre race packet. And for those that can't pick it up on the day before the race shouldn't have to pay a ridiculous fee like that.

Back to the gym, when I first started, I went to the gym religiously. When summer came around, I let work become an excuse. Luckily, I didn't gain any weight, but I didn't lose any either. I still talk to trainers, and I'm getting in the gym again, but since the gym is has 24/7 access, there's no reason or excuse as to why I'm not there on a regular basis. I started doing yoga a few months back, and I stopped when the instructor moved to Italy. Classes happen over my dinner break, but it cuts it close to when I need to start getting things done at work. My biggest obstacle is myself. I get into these ruts where I don't want to do anything. I feel like I'll never lose the weight I want to lose. I won't get the energy that I once had. All of this weighs on me, and I let it. There's no excuse for not making it into the gym when there's 24/7 access. I never thought it would be easy by any means. If it was easy, everyone would be doing it. I post my workout pics to hold me accountable. That's the best thing I can do right now. I need to see results so I can feel them, too. I did go down a pants size, but I did that once before. My goal is to keep going down so I can have more energy and feel better.

Gym life shouldn't be easy. If it was, we wouldn't appreciate the results it produces as much. I'm not happy with my results yet, but I will be once I get to my goal. I have to hold myself accountable, and worse yet, I have to be my own cheerleader. Why worse yet? Because I'm doing this for me and nobody else. And I never was a good cheerleader.