So Tell Me Why...

28th of December 2016

NOTE: I wrote this over a year and a half ago. Today is the anniversary of my mother's passing. I wasn't sure what I was supposed to do. I do know that I've thought a lot about her. I'm so close to closing out the estate, which is good. Running the estate has taken it's toll on me. I never knew when to ask for help or even who. While I've had offers from people to help (which I very much appreciated), I turned it down a lot of the times. Why, you ask? Hell, I couldn't tell you.

Maybe it's because I know I'm emotional enough as it is. I know I take things more personal than I should. I can take a joke. However, I hate repetition. Repetition tells me it's either never going to change, or it's not a joke anymore. And when I'm trying to get something done, my patience is even thinner than it was before.

Maybe it's because I have trust issues. We've all had that one person who says he or she will help you but not follow through with the help. That's happened many times to me. I didn't expect much help with the estate stuff. There's not much they can do since every company I've dealt with has wanted to speak with the administrator of the estate...me. There wasn't much of a break for it either. I have a sister that lives in Northeastern Iowa and a brother who lives in Minneapolis. They weren't really in any position to help with a lot. They are the only two I would expect to help, but they had issues that prevented them from doing so. Main one being, well, see above paragraph.

So tell me why....why is everything nowadays so damn complicated? I've never bought a house, but I just sold my mother's house about a month ago. That process has changed my mind on buying a house for myself. I think I'm going to pass. We accepted the offer in about mid February, and the closing almost didn't happen on March 31st. However, it did happen. I never want to go through that again. I'm done with it. Doesn't that just squash the American Dream? Also, I was on hold for a total of 10 hours 45 minutes in dealing with estate matters. That's ridiculous. I almost have to ask for a day off just to get things done. With the mortgage company

#repetition #estate #sotellmewhy