I don't shut up...I grow up...or do I?
17th of June 2015
I'm at that age where if I wonder if I just think too much about everything. It's natural for children to think and ask questions all the time. They're young and don't know a lot about what goes on in every day life. I sometimes wonder if I even know. I've been told (I'm sure we all have) at least at some point in my life to grow up. My question is do we really ever?
As I'm writing this, I'm 36 years old, single with no children and still don't know what I want to do when I "grow up." About 10 years ago, some guy giving a lecture I was sitting in on quoted Benjamin Franklin. The quote he used was "Many people die at twenty five and aren't buried until they are seventy five." The man giving the lecture said that it meant we stop dreaming. That was the only thing I took out of that lecture, and it was the only thing I believed. I don't remember exactly how old I was, but I hadn't stopped dreaming. In fact, I had too many dreams to choose from.
Nowadays, I don't know if I've stopped dreaming, but I know I'm not happy with certain things in my life. However, how do I change that? People will look at my life and tell me I should just be happy. That's basically a nice way of saying "quit complaining." I see nothing wrong with wanting and expecting more. I see nothing wrong with wanting to feel like I contribute more. There's nothing wrong with looking at something and thinking "I did that."
I have quite the job resume. It's a mix of everything. I worked at a grocery store in the grocery department, frozen food (fell asleep in the freezer once....whoops) and produce. I've worked multiple restaurants in every position possible. I even worked as a kitchen manager at Hooters. In the restaurant industry alone, I was a cook, server, host, food runner and both kitchen and out front manager. I also was a beer vendor out at the Iowa Cubs. I've also done time in the Post Office during the holiday season at late (or early, depending on how you look at it) hours. I worked at a radio station (you should know by now it's KGGO) doing web stuff and with the help of one of the radio talent, we brought site views up to 800,000 in a month. I also helped out with the concerts they organized.
However, I know I can put a concert together if given the chance. That's what I want to do. I want to give to my surroundings the feel and sound of music. I want to give others the opportunity to share their music and inspire the world to do good things. I'm not saying that if I put a concert together, I'll be happy. What I'm saying is I want to put a smile on the faces of those more around me than just the people I work with. When I only get smiles from people I work with, I don't feel I'm living up to my full potential. So, no, I'll never grow up, but I'll always expect me and others to work towards being the best.
